Lately

It has been another long while since I have blogged and that is because these days there is only one thing on my mind and I am keeping it on the DL. I tried to think about other subjects to blog about, besides this one, but I just couldn't! But come to think of it, no one reads my blog really anyways except for those people who already know. I am pregnant! It feels so weird to write that. I think it is the first time I have written that. Seems like something big will happen when i say it. Like the clouds will part and angels will appear Or something scary like i don't know what. Kind of like when you turn 16 and you are a teenager staring in the mirror thinking you should look different, but you don't. i said I was pregnant 20 seconds ago and all is still the same in the world. I think it is in my heart that the birds must be singing and the angels dancing and in my head that the fear and worry leaps out. Because it feels so intense inside of me is why i expect it to appear like a cacophony of lights and sound outside of me when i say it. "I'm pregnant" Saying it out loud is the same. You almost want to start looking around to see if something happened after the words come out of your mouth. My friend Johanna even asked me, How does it feel to say it? So apparently this must be a common feeling. That is a relief. i am glad to know I am like all the other women. And i wouldn't be surprised, in fact i am certain, that the daddys-to-be must feel the same way. But of course they would never admit it.